arsonist in my brain

I do not know if i want to do fashion design.
who advised me to choose a career path at the age of 18,
none has ever been so ill informed as to what the future could hold.
i find no enjoyment in pattern making,
NONE
i hate time constraint and deadlines,
I hate failing to meet people high standards,
i hate being forced to find inspiration in things that don't inspire me
 guess i am only still doing it now because i don't quit things half way
I do however love drawing
i love music
I love the beach
i love adventure
To an extent i crave it a little

looking at society i don't really believe many people do enjoy there jobs so it makes me feel guilty for thinking that fashion design and a good fashion design coarse at that makes me so miserable.
& really i do love fashion and clothing and material and ahhh delicious
so why am i constantly so depressed at uni .

whose to say a normal job isn't travelling around scuba diving  or surfing or making music all year

what am i doing
the ideas in my head are on fire again and causing a ruckus inside my skull.

ARGH
i miss myself.

fair well.

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